I’m honestly so sick of people leaving and coming back only when they need me. (ie. Paige, Chris, Nina, Hannah, Torin, Jade.. Shall I name more? Fuck the list goes on forever) It’s all fucking bullshit. And I’m stressed as fuck about my birthday. I am so bitterly alone it blows my mind. I don’t want to spend the day like last year and that’s what it looks like is going to happen. And that’s the date set. I’m scared I will actually follow through. Death is merely a rope away..
I’m so deeply in love and I promised myself I’d never get to this point but now that I have I can’t even imagine life without him. When I’m not with him, I’m thinking of him. And when I’m with him, I’m in a whole other world. He just has such a good heart and is so genuinely sweet and he is just the type of boy I want to be in love with.